If you go to my Master’s office, you might also disappear. First, you will hear next to nothing—then the dancing of the breeze in the eucalyptus trees. The carpet will swallow your footsteps. Percolating coffee scents and the spice of a man’s cologne. He’s seen before he’s heard. You will say hello, and he will say follow me.

You will find him handsome. He will regard you over his shoulder and warn, the first time: You walk in here like you own the place. Then you will remember. Take the length of the hallway on your knees.

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